Filed under: The Unexplainable Things that Seem to Only Occur to Me | Tags: a poetic retelling of my unfortunate seduction, emotions and other disasters
“I am going to give you a piece of advice…advice I wish I’d been told in guidance class back in high school, in between the don’t-do-acid and don’t-drink-and-drive films. I wish our counselors had told us, ‘When you grow older a dreadful, horrible sensation will come over you. It’s called loneliness, and you think you know what it is now, but you don’t. Here is the list of the symptoms, and don’t worry—loneliness is the most universal sensation on the planet. Just remember one fact—loneliness will pass. You will survive and you will be a better human for it.”
Words of wisdom from The Coup.
Filed under: The Unexplainable Things that Seem to Only Occur to Me | Tags: a poetic retelling of my unfortunate seduction
And the bitter loneliness creeps up behind me again.
I haven’t thought about you in a while, mostly because there really are people more special than you are. Still, I had an entire list of things to display but your bastardly ways don’t warrant any repeats of words I’ve already said. I know what some of you are going to say, “21 years of your life, Josie. You haven’t seen nothing yet.”
What happened – where did things go terribly wrong. Did I make a wrong turn somewhere. Did I ask for too much. Was it too demanding to just have someone special to do nothing with every day.
Oh god, everything, EVERYTHING I ever did for you was in vain.
I can’t say this at all for any of the other relationships I’ve been in but I was far too good for you and you didn’t deserve better.
Fuck, I need to stop being attracted to unreliable, unemotional nutcases. Sorry if all y’all make me feel better about being bat shit crazy.
Excuse my failed attempts at sounding like a tortured soul, please don’t discriminate.
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Ok, Jack Donaghy says Shut it Down.
My night cycle has completely gone off course and my sleep is currently being held ransom by the televisual brilliance of 30 Rock.
Evening time schedules have been reduced to: getting home from the office, a meal or some sort of poor dietary equivalent (I had champagne and strawberries for dinner today because I wanted to), and then a marathon of television consisting of episodes I’d already seen. American TV is ruining my life.
Sorry for the banal updates – I’ve been rather brain dead, this electro music I’ve been listening to is drilling a hole at the back of my head.
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There is no better inspiration for writing than that which is eleventh houred or narcotics and alcohol fueled. Not to say that this post was written under the influence of either (maybe the slightest bit of the far latter)
As far as developments of my life go, I have been doing rather peachy. Good riddance to bad rubbish – I am far from bitter about it really: you win some, you lose some, sometimes karma is a bitch.
It has also come to my attention that too many people read this blog (from comments I’ve recieved in person recently) for me to delve too deeply into some details – big brother is watching again. If you were meant to know, I would have probably told you already. I sure know how to pick them.
The subject of my age has also been quite a glaring factor of late. How infuriating. I am going to maintain the fact that I have an old soul as well as put ‘maturity’ into a relative. Alphaville said it best really.
So much secrecy, quite unbecoming of me. I would spill the beans but wouldn’t it just be more enjoyable being cryptic? How vague can I be and still entice you.
Good game, buddy.
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If you’re wondering about the other disaster and I, we are done. That is all.
Tim Gunn would say Carry On and I would agree.
